Taking stock

Do you ever feel like you just can’t get grounded?

No matter what I do, I always seem to be looking. Looking for what? I’m not really sure. There are always a plenitude of plans running through my mind. Ideas. Opportunities. Dreams. Why can’t I just do them all? Of course I can’t, many of these ideas run completely contrary to one another: continue my 3 day/week job, focusing the rest of my attentions on my family; take photography courses and become fluent in French; continue my education at the graduate level; open a small socially conscious bookstore/cafe; run a consulting business; run for office (ya right!); live on a small family farm, sustaining ourselves with what we can produce and/or trade/barter; travel the world…

Please tell me I’m not the only one who feels this way.

Some days I feel so entirely lost in these dreams that I can’t do anything at all, so I sit and I read a book, drink my coffee, wander aimlessly on the internet, taking the occasional “break” to do something domestic like hang laundry, clean the bathroom, pay some bills…

One day I’ll have it all figured out. Right?

My biggest problem is that I have too many interests, passions, and needs. They all seem to conflict in some way, while being entirely interdependent at the same time somehow.

About Trish

family legacy curator, social justice advocate, blogger, amateur photographer, reader, cyclist, runner & swimmer, mom of two